I Know You

I know you
You’re too short
You’ve a bad skin
You talked to them very bad
Words didn’t seem to work

You thought that you were ugly
And everyone was looking at you
So you’re learning to be invisible
Look down to avoid conversation
The hours
Days
Weekends
Where were you?
In the basement
In your room
Just to have a way to get away from them
Ones who make you unease inside yourself

Do you ever get invited to one of their parties?
You’re certain if you want to go or not
Imagining of the scenarios which could unfold
They would laugh at you
If you don’t know what to do
If wouldn’t have the right things on
If they notice that you came from a different planet
Did you find out that you were invited that you were so weird?

You spend a lot of time on hate
I hate how she walks
I hate how they are moving on
I hate that he defeats me
At what time do you take loving someone?

I know you
You’re sensitive
That you fear being stepped on one more time
It seems that if you show a part of yourself
There is the least bit venerable someone would take advantage of you
One of them steps on you
They mistake kindness for a weakness
But you know the difference
You know yourself very well now and you don’t trust people

You try to find that special person
Someone you can be with
Someone you can touch
Someone you can talk to
Someone someone in you
You don’t feel so strange around someone
And you found that they don’t really exist
You feel closer to people on movie screens

Yeah, I think I know you
You spend time day dreaming
And people have made comment to that effect
They think that you’re self-involved
But they don’t know
Do they?
That the long night shifts alone
About the years of keeping yourself company
All the nights you’ve wrapped your arms around yourself
Imagining someone holding you
The hours of indecision
Self-doubt
The intense pressure in you
Devastation of rejection

It disturbs you of how life is so smooth to others
In yours eyes, they don’t struggle
Are you sure?
For you, life is a long trip
Terrifying and wonderful
You’re faithful and patient
Yeah, I think I know you

 

By Victor Omondi

Author: TrizingPoet

A Software Developer in training. A dreamer full of life, illumination, idealism and innovation. He excels in project and business development. He is passionate about poetry, public speaking and story telling. Hobbies: Reading, writing and thinking.

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